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Post by Haruka Kunimitsu on Oct 12, 2008 13:15:06 GMT -5
She nodded quickly. "Of course, i can carry it." she told him, smiling lightly.
"Just tell me whenever you're ready. Or done or... I dont' know." She looked away quickly. This was so awkward. She wanted to help in anyways she could, but it was hard to without feeling light a fool.
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Post by Shizuke Tsukiyama on Oct 12, 2008 13:17:14 GMT -5
Yuo pushed himself up off the counter, balancing carefully.
"I'd like to go back into the living room now, so carrying it now would be nice." Yuo said.
"Thank you." he smiled at her.
"I love you Haruka...very much."
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Post by Haruka Kunimitsu on Oct 12, 2008 13:19:07 GMT -5
Haruka swallowed, bitting her tongue so she would not respond in the normal fashion that she would have.
She took his glass. "Alright then, let's go. Do you want to hop, or do you want to lean off of me?" she asked.
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Post by Shizuke Tsukiyama on Oct 12, 2008 13:27:43 GMT -5
Yuo put a hand on her shoulder, leaning slightly off of her.
"Give me 3 seconds to get my balance back, and then I'll hop." Yuo said, waiting a few seconds before letting go of her shoulder and hopping ahead of her.
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Post by Haruka Kunimitsu on Oct 12, 2008 13:30:41 GMT -5
She started walking slowly enough that he could keep up with her. "If you're sure..." she mumbled quietly. "Try not to fall ok?" she added, still looking forwards. She paced his cup on the side table she had put beside the couch for him. "Do you want some help laying back down?" she asked.
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Post by Shizuke Tsukiyama on Oct 12, 2008 13:33:20 GMT -5
Yuo balanced himself, leaning off of Haruka, a bit infront of the couch. Yuo tilted though, and fell backwards, taking Haruka with him. He winced slightly, and looked at Haruka.
"Haruka? Is this hard for you? I mean, having restrictions until I gain your trust?" he asked, curiously.
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Post by Haruka Kunimitsu on Oct 12, 2008 13:35:49 GMT -5
Haruka yelped as Yuo pulled her down, him laying underneath her.
Before she could push off, he spoke. And stared at her. "Yes..." she admitted quietly, starting to push herself up, sitting on the dge of the couch.
"But you know it's not just the matter of gaining your trust back..." she added. "I'm punishing myself at the same time."
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Post by Shizuke Tsukiyama on Oct 12, 2008 13:37:20 GMT -5
Yuo pulled himself up, putting his ankle on top of the cushion again.
"Why are you punishing yourself?" Yuo asked, looking at her.
"I mean, this feels more like my punishment for being a jerk. But why is it your punishment too? I don't understand that."
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Post by Haruka Kunimitsu on Oct 12, 2008 13:43:35 GMT -5
She rested her face in her hands, shaking it slightly.
"Because what you said about me before was true." she mumbled quietkly. "All I want is you. I'm a stupid, selfish, inconsiderate girl who doesn't care what i have to do to keep you all to myself." she felt like she was going to start crying. She was already shaking.
"I'm a horrible person."
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Post by Shizuke Tsukiyama on Oct 12, 2008 13:46:36 GMT -5
Yuo put a hand on her shoulder.
"You're not stupid Haruka. And you're not horrible." he said.
"What I was trying to say before...not that you were selfish and inconsiderate, but that you didn't understand." Yuo said, rubbing her back gently.
"Since your mother died when you were so young, you didn't get the chance to bond with her." he said.
"You don't know what the bond with my mother is."
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Post by Haruka Kunimitsu on Oct 12, 2008 13:48:47 GMT -5
She shrugged him off quickly, keeping her head into her hands still.
"You, shut up!" she yelled. "That is not what you said! You said i wanted just you! And i do! YOu don't understand at all what you said!"
She stood up and away from him. He couldn't comfort her right now. She knew what she was.
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Post by Shizuke Tsukiyama on Oct 12, 2008 13:52:20 GMT -5
Yuo jumped up, painfully limping after her.
"No! No I know what I said!" Yuo exclaimed.
"I know what I said Haruka, and it's completely true. Haruka you want me, but that doesn't make you a horrible person." he said.
"Listen to me this time. I'm trying to do something so I don't loose you." he said.
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Post by Haruka Kunimitsu on Oct 12, 2008 13:56:43 GMT -5
She shook her head again, rubbing her arms. "Yuo, you don't know how terrible of a person i am. You're right when you said that i don't care what you think, i don't care what or who i have to go through to stay with you. I would do anything to stay with you. Anything..." she could feel small tears running off her face now.
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Post by Shizuke Tsukiyama on Oct 12, 2008 13:58:58 GMT -5
Yuo limped to the front of her, wiping her face.
"You're not terrible, you're not horrible." Yuo said.
"Haruka regardless of the fact that you just want to be with me you're the best person ever." Yuo said.
"Because of you, I haven't been taking my meds for months." Yuo said.
"Because of you I'm still alive, even without meds and constant doctors appointments I'm still alive." Yuo said.
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Post by Haruka Kunimitsu on Oct 12, 2008 14:01:42 GMT -5
She shook her head again, flinching back as he tried to touch her face. "You're not convincing me otherwise. You may be able to lie to yourself, but i can't. I know what I am. I'm the monster... not you." she took another step back from him.
"So, i'm going to punish myself. It's what i deserve. I don't deserve to hugn you, to kiss you, nothing like that."
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