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Post by Haruka Kunimitsu on Oct 12, 2008 20:11:26 GMT -5
She was surprised by the fact that he was so infatuated with her staying around. She sighed and came back and sat on the chair beside the couch. "Alright then... I'll stay." she said quietly, smiling lightly. It made her very happy that he wanted her so badly to stay.
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Post by Shizuke Tsukiyama on Oct 12, 2008 20:14:16 GMT -5
"I'm going to have to shape up soon before I go insane." Yuo said quietly, his cheeks a light pink.
"I'm so use to literally showering you with hugs by the dozen..." Yuo hide his disappointment.
"Haruka...how much do I have to do to get you to forgive me? Give me an idea of what I have to do."
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Post by Haruka Kunimitsu on Oct 12, 2008 20:17:44 GMT -5
"Keep promises. DO what you say you will." she told him, a serious look on her face. "That will be a start to earning my trust back."
She looked down at her hands, falling silent, twiddling her hands subconsciously. She wassn't sure what else to say.
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Post by Shizuke Tsukiyama on Oct 12, 2008 20:21:26 GMT -5
Yuo felt himself shrink into the back of the couch. Yuo had a feeling that her not trusting him, was going to be longer than he thought. He looked down, upset with himself. He never knew that things could turn like this.
"If that's only a start... then what's the end?" he asked.
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Post by Haruka Kunimitsu on Oct 12, 2008 20:25:41 GMT -5
"The end is you seeing my point of view. Listening to me, rather than just hearing me." she said in a low voice, looking back up to him again.
"It might be awhile. A couple weeks at least." she swallowed at that thought. "But... we may be able to... do.. normal things before of the end."
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Post by Shizuke Tsukiyama on Oct 12, 2008 20:29:01 GMT -5
Yuo froze, and then his head hung. A couple weeks wasn't going to do, he'd go mental by then, and that just wasn't long enough. Yuo knew it'd be longer. Now Yuo felt like he was going to be sick, but he knew he wouldn't be.
'Why don't I just cough up my heart and wrap it up in a little gift box?' Yuo thought.
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Post by Haruka Kunimitsu on Oct 12, 2008 20:33:00 GMT -5
Haruka sighed, walking over to sit next to him again, keepinig a few inches beside them.
"Yuo... are you alright... i'm sorry." she mumbled softy, trying to get a better look at his face. "I know it's going to be hard, but... i kind of what you to also get the idea of how it feels to not be able to have someone in the way we... want eachother. The way i felt before i met you."
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Post by Shizuke Tsukiyama on Oct 12, 2008 20:35:14 GMT -5
Yuo leaned over his knees, shaking slightly.
"I'm going to be sick." Yuo said finally, his voice shaking along with his body. Yuo didn't think weeks would go by before he went crazy. Yuo didn't think he'd go weeks without another suicide attempt at this rate.
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Post by Haruka Kunimitsu on Oct 12, 2008 20:38:07 GMT -5
Haruka wrapped one arm around his shoulder and rubbed it gently. "Hush... hush..." she said quietly, trying to calm him down.
"Yuo, think about the fact that... we have nights together... remember?" she reminded him quickly. "YOu made me agree to it. We can cuddle tonight." she promised him.
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Post by Shizuke Tsukiyama on Oct 12, 2008 20:40:35 GMT -5
Yuo gritted his teeth, shaking his head.
"It won't be the same." Yuo said, his voice still shaking.
"It won't. I'll go insane. I can't last weeks without things being normal." Yuo continued to shake his head.
"I can't, I can't. I know what things feel like without someone to love you and care for you. I know what it's like, it's empty, cold, depressing, lifeless." Yuo was trembling.
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Post by Haruka Kunimitsu on Oct 12, 2008 20:43:18 GMT -5
Haruka bit herlip, trying to think of a compromise. "How about this. At night, i'll lift all rules. YOu can kiss me, you can hug me, you can tell me you love me as much as you want." she said. "Please, just calm down. Please...." she swallowed, she hated seeing Yuo like this.
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Post by Shizuke Tsukiyama on Oct 12, 2008 20:46:38 GMT -5
"No, no then I won't sleep." Yuo's voice still shook, and within seconds, Yuo was in mental break down mode. Yuo had had mental break downs, maybe once before, and the last mental break down he had had, just about lead to his death.
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Post by Haruka Kunimitsu on Oct 12, 2008 20:51:52 GMT -5
"Yuo, please!" she begged him, grabbing his chin and forcing him to look up at her. "Yuo, please calm down! I'll lower limits. I'll let you kiss me twice a day, you can hug me if you ask. Ok!? Please, please calm down!" she bit her lip, "Please, Yuo, please. Please..."
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Post by Shizuke Tsukiyama on Oct 12, 2008 20:57:07 GMT -5
Yuo screamed, thrusting his chin from her hold and curling back up into a ball. He trembled madly, his eyes wide. He was mumbling things, some things about loving Haruka, and suicide thoughts. This was almost how Yuo had been before he had met Haruka.
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Post by Haruka Kunimitsu on Oct 12, 2008 20:59:40 GMT -5
He pulled away from her. She quickly wrapped her arms around his nech gently from the side. She rested her chin on his shoulder. "Yuo... I love you." she said soflty into his ear. That seemed to calm him down most of the time. Maybe it would help now. "I love you so much."
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